August no no

46 days since my last orgasm and moreover today is the 1st of September which means that i haven't had an orgasm at all for the month of August. i am pretty sure this is the first time that i go for a whole month without a single orgasm since i discovered masturbation as a teenager. The more i think about it the more i get frustrated and desperate to cum. Recently i have been very busy thinking about the thongs that i was wearing and moreover as to be a better slave for Mistress despite the distance but today the chastity is really taking a toll on me. As i have experienced before, the chastity cause sort of waves of frustrations in me. There will be up and downs, moments in which i cannot think of anything else but cuming and times in which i even forget i have a cock. i assume that is sort of tied with the physiology of sperm production. As my balls get fuller and fuller, the need no sorry the desire (a slave as no needs) to cum drives me crazy but then eventually my body expel or absorb the sperm and my frustration level goes back. Anyway i am feeling i am reaching the peak and it would be great if i could at least get some stroking action going soon. i am still at 6 points (and nearly got them all wiped out) so there would be at least 4 more days before i can touch my cock..........Hope i can make it for this week-end.
Anyway, back to the chastity, 46 days is very close to my personal record of 49 which Mistress took me previously and i wonder what She may have in mind for me this time. We did chat a bit about post orgasm torture and i can tell you that i am getting quite desperate enough to accept some post orgasm torture but unfortunately i know that i am too weak to do that to myself............ so what i could offer Mistress is some severe ball slapping during and after masturbation if She would ever allow me to do it....... Anyway, i am not even allowed to beg so i hope this blog will not turn to bite me in the ass............