The dog leash

Finally recovering after a nasty cold/flu that kept me in bed (and not in a nice way) for the whole week-end. Still not sure what happened but i have spent the last few days with terrible headaches and cough, completely drained. As a result my mind wasn't concentrating so much on my lack of orgasm (nearly 60 days now........ unbelievable) and indeed action as my next stroking is still very far away. i wasn't also able to chat or communicate with Mistress much and i was very sad about it. Thankfully, Mistress understood my situation and i was dispensed from blogging. i kept wearing my things even when i went to see the doctor. i must say that i did think about removing them for the visit as i was afraid i had to strip for a reason or an other but then i realised that chances to strip in this occasion at the doctor were low and even if that would happen.......... it wouldn't be the end of the world. Just some extra humiliation which i am sure i deserve for all the times i have left Mistress down. Anyway, nothing happened and nobody still knows that i daily wear sexy thongs........

i am back at work now and feeling already much better especially because i was able to chat with Mistress again. i must however report of a point which i have been thinking a lot on Sunday. i suppose it was natural that not feeling well, my lust and desire to serve would also decrease and although that made harder to obey Mistress rules, my desire for stroking or an orgasm was also low so i suppose the two things balanced themselves out. But i was expecting to be completely back in my submode once i started to feel better and i must confess that this is not the case. 3 days without the constant check of Mistress over me, without Her powerful breath over my neck and i already feel less submitted. i haven't disobeyed any of Mistress orders, not taking advantage of my still poor health to be lazy and i am still very much captured by Mistress personality and power but i do feel that a few days without a constant reminded that i am a slave in training made me less determined to improve and be a good slave. This morning chat with Mistress seems to have re-established the right order of things as i feel now again frustrated with my lack of sexual activities, humiliated by a strong and powerful Lady who i wish i could worship the ground She walks on. i am sure Mistress will find the way to tie the leash that has gone a bit loose in the last few days and push me into new submissiveness........ and i cannot wait for this. i am happy to feel better but more importantly i am happy to feel under Mistress power and control again.