Being a whore

Just when i thought that i had reached the rock bottom, Mistress finds the way to push me a little be more and make me experience new level of submission. In the last couple of days being able to serve Mistress via webcam has really made a big difference and somehow reducing the distance problem. Being ordered live through the webcam and moreover performing for Mistress on webcam has provided Mistress a new better way to express Her power over me ....... and as a consequence i have felt like a whore like never before in my life. There have been several episodes that have highlighted my submission condition and the fact that i am indeed her bitch. First of all is the fact that i am indeed at Her beck and call. It has happen now 2 times already that i was busy doing something or indeed sleeping when Mistress buzzed me and i had to leave enery thing and run to answer Her call, reporting to Her and performing for Her just like a whore or better a monkey. Although though, it is such a rush to be waken up by Mistress buzz, to jump out of bed straggling to open my eyes and walk but happy that Mistress has time and willingness to see me, chat with me, use me for Her amusement. Never experienced something like that before and it is indeed what i dreamed real slavery to be all about. Similarly, i was ordered to leave the webcam on to have Mistress watching me while i sleep in my sexy thong. i still cannot believe it that i was showing Her how i was sleeping in my sexy thong. it was an incredible rush and soooooooooo humiliating.

The second point was the performances that i have been ordered to do for Her on cam. i was ordered to fuck my ass with the butt plug but manually without the vibrating bullet. This is again a typical example of the way Mistress continuously affirms Her power over me. It is not just the physical discomfort of having to fuck myself (the butt plug is not that big but it still hurts when it goes in the first time) and the humiliation act of pushing something up my ass while showing it to a Lady for Her amusement, but also the fact that Mistress ordered me to do it manually without the vibrating bullet that somehow i am very curious to try. It is a bit like no touching my cock. i know it is there, i would love to grab it, use it, see how it feels like it but Mistress doesn't let me do it. She just teases me with the but plug or sexy talk to make me think about my cock and the bullet but prohibits me to use them. Such a mind blowing torture that continuously reaffirms who is in charge. i had also the opportunity to stroke for Mistress. Finally a few seconds (i don't think i actually reached 1 minute) of stroking action supervised by Mistress. A part from the very short length of it, the fact that i had to let it go when she said it... immediately... it was like putting a clear stamp on my mind that i belong to Her in body and soul. There is now no mistake: I AM HER BITCH !!

The little stroking also teased me enough to make me remember that i am now at day 53..... i guess it is my new record and my balls are red and swollen......... i need to release some cum and i would do anything for being milked. Taking advantage of the webcam option i am ready to spank myself as much and as hard as Mistress directs me to do it or maybe slap my balls and perform any thing She wishes (lick my own cum, post orgasm torture with the bullet, milking with bullet......) just to release some of the cum in my balls.